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Growing up in the Sai organization, a group of us Sai
brothers have always shared a heartfelt connection with each other which
stemmed from our mutual love for Swami and a passion for music. Swami
has always said that Keertanam (singing) is one of nine forms of Bhakti
(devotion). We felt driven to follow the path of music to reach Him.
Our blessed experience began early,
around January of 2002. At this time, one of the members of our music
group from New Jersey got the sudden idea to attempt to perform a musical
program for our dearest Swami. Although all of have always wished to perform
for Him, the actual thought of doing it had somehow never occurred to
any of us. When it was discussed, we naturally agreed and soon informed
all known singers and musicians who could make this a dynamic performance.
Our group consisted of two main singers, one harmonium player, two tabla
players and a dholak player. We frequently sent registered letters to
Swami, praying to Him for an opportunity, each of us signing our letters
as "Music Boys". We wished to establish a heart-to-heart connection with
Swami, using letters as a vehicle to His Lotus Feet. As musicians, singing
His praise to Him is the greatest form of worship and love that we could
offer to Him. As always with Swami, we were not sure what to expect. With
His Grace, five of us arrived in Parthi by the first week of July; the
plans of the sixth were a bit disturbed. There was a great deal of uncertainty
whether the sixth member of the group, who was a lead singer, would come
or not. Moreover, when we arrived in Parthi, he reconfirmed his inability
to come to Parthi. Although initially dejected, even shocked at the circumstances,
we kept strong, sturdy faith that he would indeed come.
The first morning that we sat together, wearing gold-colored scarves,
we proceeded to Darshan and sat in the second and third row. Bhagavan
came over, glanced at us, casting a look of recognition and sending a
signal that things were soon going to be in motion. He took our letters
and sweetly said "Choostanu" ("I will see") before He walked off…
Practices began, although incompletely manned and spirited without
the other singer. Overall, all were worried and unsure, as he was not
only the lead singer, but also the leader of our group. We became more
and more concerned as the days rolled by. On a brighter note, Darshans
were absolutely spectacular. Bhagavan looked more and more reminiscent
of the God Supreme than ever before, glowing in ecstasy and shining brilliantly
in beauty.
While in Parthi, we called the missing member of our group and
we learned that he had a beautiful experience. While meditating, he saw
us sitting in Darshan lines, wearing gold-colored scarves, the very color
that we selected!! We knew that Bhagavan had a plan for us, only time
could unveil it to us.
We daily flooded Bhagavan's mailbox
with our prayers. He heard our prayers. We were thrilled when we received
word that our group leader had a miraculous change in plans and was on
his way to join us in Parthi.
Our leader's boss was extremely insistent
that he should not leave because of major layoffs and two major projects
that needed to be completed. If he left, his job would be in danger. However,
if he was able to finish his role in the two projects, he would be able
to leave for Parthi. On the 12th, he went to his boss, asking what additional
responsibilities he had to take on while his boss was on vacation. The
boss immediately told our leader that there was no need for him to take
on any responsibilities; he did not understand why he was talking as though
he wasn't going on vacation. Our leader then reminded his boss that it
was the boss who told him not to go, but his boss was insistent that he
did not recollect any such statement. Furthermore, he told our leader
to "modify his plans" and leave immediately, reminding him that he must
be back by July 25th for an extremely important meeting. In a fluster
of confusion, he immediately left and instantly saw Bhagavan's intervention
in the whole process.
Practices continued and on the 16th,
at about 3AM, our group was finally united, donned in our gold-colored
scarves, ready to draw our Lord through our love as best and as fast as
we could, for we only had four days together as a group.
It didn't take too much of an effort
on our part- He did it all. We sat in two rows of three's, three in the
front and three in the back, in both the second and third lines. With
bated breath we waited for Bhagavan to come, praying, crying and begging
for His mercy to be showered on us. Finally, He did come, slowly and magnificently.
He saw us from a distance and came closer and closer, and as He did, the
prayer in my mind and heart grew louder and stronger and more vigorous!
He accepted our group letter and then looked at us and asked one of the
other main singers where we were from. He replied "USA, Swami." Swami
took a few steps to our right and then turned back and asked "Music Boys?"
Our hearts jumped and our joy was obvious.
He asked, "When is the program?"
We replied, "As You wish, Swami."
"What is the time?"
"At Your Will, Swami." He turned for a moment and then turned back and
asked our leader: "When are you leaving?" "
On the 19th, Swami."
"All?" "No, Swami. Boys are leaving later. Swami, should I change my plans?"
"Very happy. Good boy," as He patted his cheek, "No, no. President Srinivasan
se pucho (ask) I will also speak to president."
"We love You, Swami."
"Yes, yes. Very happy."
He continued to walk towards the verandah. Half of us broke down into
tears, half of us were starry-eyed, all of us were overwhelmed. In a few
seconds, Swami summoned Mr. Srinivasan from the verandah and told him
to speak with us, that we were the Music Boys and that we were from USA.
Those words were simply ringing in our ears, minds and hearts. Mr. Srinivasan
came over and called us aside. Mr. Srinivasan asked us when we wanted
to perform, suggesting the 17th evening in Poornachandra Auditorium, upon
Swami's approval. Srinivasan also insisted that we get the approval of
Dr. Bill Harvey, an official representative of USA. Further, he also suggested
that we perform for Mr. Leonardo, who was in charge of all of the cultural
programs during the Seva Conference, which was around the corner. Somewhere
in the confusion, Mr. Leonardo mistakenly assumed that we wanted to be
apart of the cultural programs and wished to be slotted into the timings.
In any case, we performed for Mr. Leonardo and Dr. Harvey, who both gave
their approval, most graciously. Mr. Leonardo immediately informed Mr.
Srinivasan of his approval also taking with him to Mr. Srinivasan, the
book that we prepared for Swami with our request. Mr. Srinivasan took
with him the consent of Leonardo and the book to Swami that afternoon
for lunch.
That evening, we met Mr. Leonardo and
Mr. Srinivasan, who informed us that Bhagavan took the book, looked through
it and told Mr. Srinivasan that He would personally inform the boys of
His decision and give us His instructions, directly. Thinking beyond the
words that were used, we felt completely confused and anticipated the
worst. We stepped up the power of our prayer and each of us gave it every
ounce of intensity that we had in our capacity.
The next morning, we sat again in the
same place, but a little more towards the front. Swami came by and asked:
"Did you speak to Srinivasan?"
"Yes Swami."
"When is the program?"
"As you wish, Swami."
"No, no, that is not my business, sir!"
"No, Swami, only heart-to-heart connection, Swami. No one else. Please
tell us, Swami."
"Yes, yes, very happy. Okay. Tomorrow evening. Here, [pointing to the
dais] in the front."
"Thank you, Swami. We love you."
"Yes, very happy."
Our hearts were filled with elation.
Once again, the tears, the smiles, the joy was uncontainable. But at the
same time, we knew to maintain discipline and therefore closed our eyes
and sat quietly after Swami went inside. After the Darshan Srinivasan
descended from the verandah and approached us. He told us to come up and
follow him and he sat us at the front of the verandah, in front of the
Interview Room. He stepped inside for two to three seconds and summoned
us inside.
As we filed into the small room, we
were simply taken aback by the sudden proximity to our Dear Lord, whose
bright orange robe caught our immediate attention. He was standing there,
in His full glory, the essence of purity, beauty and wonder, with His
thumb, index & middle fingers atop the bridge of His nose- totally lost,
absolutely not there; revealing His innate Divinity, exploding and transcending
all worlds before our very eyes; an image, forever the screensaver of
our minds.
Among other things, Swami asked us to
sing the songs for Him, so that He could get a preview! We did and He
seemed pleased. He went through each song and selected the ones He wanted
us to perform. He reminded us that it was a public performance and that
we must have a group name. We of course requested that He Himself give
us a name. And so He named us, "Music Boys of New Jersey…New York." He
advised us to practice well in preparation for the next day's performance.
He most sweetly put us all at ease by calling us in, talking to us, asking
each of our roles and discussing the songs, He was concerned about our
health and made us some Vibhuthi, which seemed to have a medicinal effect.
We repeated over and over how much we loved Him and He reciprocated that
love a thousand fold!
After the interview, some of us were
crying, others could not wipe the smiles off of our faces! But we still
had work to do. We practiced to our best ability all day and the following
morning. Finally, afternoon Darshan on July 18th approached and we were
all jittering with joy. We arrived well before Darshan and put our instruments
in the Mandir, all instruments, voices, minds and hearts tuned to Swami's
rhythm and rhyme. After Swami came out for Darshan and called some people
for an interview, He came out and told us to come to the dais and commence
the program.
We prepared a bouquet of flowers to
offer to Swami and He graciously accepted them. Before we began, Swami
asked us where we were from and then announced to the students and to
the rest of the gathering that we were the Music Boys from NJNY; what
a grand way to begin by having the Lord of the Universe as our Master
of Ceremonies! We were and still are eternally honored and grateful, for
we may never know for what reason we were given such an opportunity! His
love and kindness transcends anything that we have ever experienced.
The program went over well and when
we finished, Swami most graciously gifted us with white clothes and even
allowed us to be photographed with Him. He then asked one of our boys
to speak to the gathering. He spoke about Swami's infinite love and compassion,
how Swami brought us here and allowed us to perform, simply by being pure
love. He mentioned that we knew no one coming to Parthi and came with
no connections, only our heart-to-heart connection with Him. Indeed, it
was that heart-to-heart connection that brought us to Swami and that allowed
us to perform. It was Swami who prompted us to desire to perform; it was
Swami who encouraged us to write letters to Him; it was Swami who drove
us to love Him. Undeniably, it was Swami who arranged for the entire program,
from the first practice, down to the details of the songs. We can do no
more than humbly submit ourselves at His Lotus Feet and thank Him for
all of His Love. From the bottom of our hearts, we thank Swami for the
pure love He showered on us. This experience will always remain as a precious
and indelible mark in our memory. 
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